The triplets will be six this year. And it feels like the rollercoaster of the early days is over.
So much has changed, I survived new fatherhood, seep deprivation, and mild insanity. Changed thousands of nappies and grew a strong bond with my daughters. Life was a bubble with little else in focus other than becoming a loving parent. My wife and I became the dream team.
It hasn’t been without added pressures. Chronic nerve pain in my head and back from a car accident when the girls were a year old put me out of full-time work. It was hell for a while. Stacey had to adapt to my new limitations, as did I. It was a painful struggle for all of us. But we did our best with what we had, and now temporary treatment is on the horizon. It’s been a long time coming.
It’s not been time without productivity. I began this blog, wrote, and published the book. Wrote hundreds of articles on fatherhood. I am currently at college to improve my skills as a writer. A past-time turned passion which began after the triplets were born. I have plans to write more books in the future. I have the patience and time to follow it through, and I love the process. No longer able to do physical work, it has been a real outlet for me.
Life, for me, has always been about moving forward, improving my situation, and changing what needs to be changed in the process. And I feel I have been stuck in a loop of pain and a relentless routine for too long. It’s time to break the cycle. I don’t want my pain to define me, and I have to take this opportunity to create a new future for myself and my family.
I am unsure what it will be or what it will look like, perhaps a future in writing in some form, but I have a deep sense of optimism, which is something that I have lacked since the pain began. With that optimism is an intuitive sense of purpose as my role as a husband and father. All I have ever wanted to do is take care of my family the way a man should. So it’s time to begin working towards that principle again.
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