love – Patience – Tolerance

Farewell to an incredible year

There has been more than one occasion in my life that I have stopped briefly this time of year to take a look at events past, and thought with a sense of bewilderment, “what in the hell has just happened”?.They weren’t always positive reflections such is life, but there was always something to take from it. Usually a life lesson or two, or five.

If someone had told me this time last year I would now be a Father to three beautiful triplet girls, I would have laughed you out of the workshop. Many strange things have happen in my life, but being Launched into Jedi level Nappy changing, baby pacifying and a life changing experience such as Fatherhood to another three girls would never have been something I could have anticipated. Mostly Because it’s an insane and almost impossible thing to process.

Three decades ago, by this point I had already swapped my dream of being a stuntman over to chasing the more realistic, and much more suited future career as a stadium filling rock legend. My heroes certainly were enjoying a an excessive life of sex, drugs and rock n roll, at least the ones still breathing. I was going to be loved and appreciated by the world, on stage and off.

Two decades ago I was sat as an in-patient on a psychiatric ward, on full flight from reality, scratching my arse wondering why no one had given me a record deal yet. Not only was I the ultimate undiscovered tortured artist by that point, but I had also acquired supernatural powers.

One decade ago I was scraping along the rock bottom of alcoholism, angry at my failings and the self centred sot I had become. I hated the world and no one more than myself. It was impossible to look ahead, I was unable to give up my anger and unable to stop drinking on my own resources. I had failed everything and everyone in my life and I couldn’t make it stop. I was crippled with the fear of how I would survive without alcohol. It was a bleak, I was stuck halfway around the world with nowhere left to go.

Tonight I came home from a job I worked hard for. I bathed each of my babies as I do every night and had that special time with them, while Stacey got the rest of the evening routine ready for their bed time.

After feeds we take them up and I put them in their sleeping sacks, kiss them all goodnight as they smile up from their cots at me. Nothing moves me more. Many men do not get a second chance at life. That’s exactly what I’ve been granted.

I can honestly say I know what it is to love another human being unconditionally. I see the importance of what it is to give of myself so others can benefit. So that my family may thrive. If there’s anything I can take from this year it’s that the unexpected will continue to happen in my life. That the opportunities for me to grow on this journey will always be coming, my practicing patience is everything.

To reflect on this year is to see the beginning. The decision to start this blog was one made in sleep deprivation. I needed to document what was happening, simply so I wouldn’t forget. Although very personal at times I am glad I began. I’d like to thank you for taking the time to share in this journey with us. And for your messages of support. I hope to become a better blogger in the new year, once I figure out linky’s. (If your not a blogger, you’ll have as much understanding of what that means as I do, just know it’s important)

This will be my last post now until the new year. So from my house to yours, have a wonderful Christmas and God bless x

15 responses to “Farewell to an incredible year”

  1. Wow what a Read! Well done on where you are today, I too have had what a call an interesting life, so much of this remesembled my own life, hats off to you for writing such an honest post. Fantastic post good luck for next year

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    1. Thankyou, have a great Christmas and all the best for 2018


  2. Really powerful post and adorable kids. I really like the part where you mentioned you now what it’s like to love someone unconditionally. Great stuff. Thanks for sharing!

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  3. And what a year you have clearly had! It’s obvious how much family means to you. have a blessed Christmas.

    Oh, and best of luck figuring out linkies. My advice: Do a few, but don’t get carried away!


  4. Margaret TIMS (Baggy) Avatar
    Margaret TIMS (Baggy)

    Well fone Si I look forward to reading your blogs..I hope You all have a very merry Christmas and a happy healthy new year

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  5. Lovely words, said with love and pride. What you have is priceless, enjoy every second and look forward to more in 2018 , Mum xx

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  6. It is amazing what we can put ourselves through and what we can come back from. Congrats on your beautiful girls and an amazing year!

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  7. it’s amazing what we can put ourselves through and what we can come back from. Congratulations on your beautiful girls and an amazing year.


  8. They are so cute! And you are so lucky to have them, and they, you. Have a wonderful year!


  9. Beautiful pictures. I hope you have a wonderful New Year!

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    1. And you too, merry Christmas


  10. What an amazing gift you have been given! Well done for accepting the challenge. your life in exciting, never a dull moment. I hope that you continue to be a great dad. Save your stunts and singing for when the girls can appreciate it, lol. Merry Christmas to all of you, and I will check back in the new year.

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    1. And a merry Christmas to you too


  11. Love your honesty as well as your writing style… Keep up the great work, I enjoy reading about your journey. All the best to the new year and Merry Christmas!! xx

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    1. Thankyou, have a wonderful Christmas yourself x

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